Swenck, Robert B.

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Major Robert B. Swenck
37TH ARRS, 3RD ARRG, 7TH AF and 20th SOS
Air Force

Service in Vietnam
1969 – 1971

Location of Casualty
Gia Dinh, South Vietnam

The Wall
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Memories of My Father, A Vietnam War Hero

“The deceased, Major Robert B. Swenck, was survived by his wife, Donna, and his three daughters, Stacy, Lori and Heidi.”

How strange I felt reading that obituary! At age twelve, what had I survived? I still lived in our little brick house in Fern Creek, Kentucky, I still went to Fern Creek High School, and I still slept in my own bed at night. My father had died in Vietnam, his chopper shot down by a sniper on Thanksgiving Day in 1971. I didn’t understand then, as I do now, thirty-one years later, what I had survived.

The morning after Thanksgiving that year, as we were eating donuts and listening to music, an unmarked car pulled up in the driveway. Two men in dress blues stepped out. All military wives know what that means, and the men had only spoken a few words before my mother collapsed on the front porch. They carried her crying to the couch, and we were told our father’s chopper had crashed in the river and he was missing in action. Mom sobbed; I felt shocked and numb. I took my two little sisters, ages six and nine, downstairs to the basement and kept them there. We stayed quiet and listened, forgotten in the confusion. For two days we made sandwiches and stood apart, watching. Dad’s body was recovered two days later. Mom cried some more. People brought us food for a few days and then we were left alone. Mom stopped crying and walked around the house with a distant stare. A dark cloud was in our house for a long time.

For months I imagined my father showing up at my classroom door to take my hand and walk me home. Even now, I still wonder if his spirit will ever visit me in a dream, giving me guidance I still long for.

Soon after his death I remember running into Mom in a dark hall of the house and her sharp intake of breath as she said, “You look just like your Dad.” She searched my face and saw every resemblance; my cheeks, eyes, nose, and frown stung her heart. I couldn’t help being a reminder of sorrow for my mom. Did we remind everyone we knew of Death, our faces omens of the grief Death brings?

We had been mainly sheltered from television images of the war. Besides, those men wearing camouflage running around on the ground were not my dad. My dad was a pilot, he wore a plain flight suit when he went to work. He was doing something Top Secret and the return address on his letters was fake. As far as I knew, Dad was at work on a very long mission. I didn’t understand what war was. Then he was killed. As I grew older, I came to hate the Vietnam War and blamed the government, even though I had no idea about the war’s causes and avoided any mention of it. I became a rebellious teenager, transforming hurt into toughness. I grew bitter in my ignorance. Hating the war helped when I had to tell someone my father died fighting there. I couldn’t say he had been drafted unwillingly; he was a career soldier who served two tours in Vietnam. Joining in the belief that it was a bad war made it easier to get along with others who hated it, which was most everyone I met. I did not know then that my father had been a hero.

I found out about that from The Trunk. On Thanksgiving Day 1996, the 25th anniversary of his death, Mom appeared and deposited a heavy blue trunk in my living room. She firmly announced that these were my father’s things and were now mine to keep. She was finished with them. I wasn’t so sure I wanted the trunk, and I put it away in the closet. Many months later I opened it and found my father’s blue uniform, several medals and a large stack of letters.

I had seen the medals as a child, set out on the bookcase in the basement. He had earned them during his first tour in 1969. Now I saw what they were: A Silver Star (one of the top medals a soldier can earn), three Distinguished Flying Crosses, an Airman’s Medal for Valor (he was most proud of this one), eight Air Medals and a Purple Heart. I read over 100 letters he had written to Mom and to us. I found out that Dad was a highly skilled Air Force chopper pilot for the 20th Special Operations Squadron (the Green Hornets) who was flying “sensitive and classified missions” on the real, secret front lines of the war. The 20th SOS’s mission was to rescue long-range reconnaissance patrols on the ground in Cambodia during a time when both the United States and North Vietnam were denying any involvement there. He repeatedly flew extremely hazardous missions head-on into gunfire with frequent disregard for his own life. One time he and his men ran to a crashed and burning chopper and lifted it up enough to free a man who had been pinned underneath. Reading the letter he wrote to my mother that same evening took my breath away.

Since opening the trunk, I have researched the war and asked my mother questions. She bravely told me how they met and what kind of husband and father he was. They grew up in Okolona, Kentucky and met when Mom was about ten years old. She wanted to play baseball with the boys and Dad said, “Aw, let her play a while. Then she’ll go away.” They were high school sweethearts at Southern High School; she was a cheerleader and he was on the basketball team. He courted her from Western Kentucky State, and she followed him there two years later.

My search for information has intensified since Sept. 11, 2001. Seeing the faces of those who had lost loved ones made me know I could not wait any longer to tell my family’s story. I wanted those children to know someone understood their loss. I recently made several Internet contacts with men who flew with my father. They are telling me stories about his bravery and skill, and about his ever-present wit. Everyone respected him. The day he died, he had flown in the rain to rescue fourteen Navy men from battle. After sharing a turkey sandwich with them at their home base, he was flying back low under the rain clouds when a sniper’s bullet shot him dead in midair.

My own memories have surfaced. I remember him being tall and having feet so big I could sit on one and get a ride around the house. He and Mom had lots of friends and gave big parties. He would kiss Mom in the kitchen or squeeze her knee during road trips in the car. He affectionately rubbed my head until my hair shook, and he challenged me to always do my best in school. He taught us proper manners in a restaurant. His shadowy presence looming in the doorway was enough to make my sister and me stop our loud nighttime giggling and lay quiet as mice in our beds. He was always telling jokes and could make anything sound funny. He told us he had earned the Silver Star by flying a general to use a real latrine.

When Dad returned from his first tour in Vietnam, he arrived at Standiford Field Airport still wearing his flight suit. The airport personnel made him enter the terminal through the back door so he wouldn’t upset the passengers or be called a baby-killer. I remember Mom and us three girls waiting just inside the big plate glass windows, watching each person walk across the tarmac, looking for Dad. Suddenly Mom flew around toward us and spoke quickly in a tone that made me know her instructions were very important. “Sit here, girls. Wait and don’t move. I have to go meet your father at another gate.” Mom’s look was stern and fierce, but she wasn’t mad at us. We sat wide-eyed for a long time, and finally there was Dad walking down the hall, Mom clinging to his neck. We ran and grabbed his waist, his knees, whatever we could reach according to our heights. He tried to hug us all at the same time with different hugs. Mom needed a certain wife-hug, Heidi a baby hug up in his arms, and Lori and I some little girl hugs. Mine came with a little respect attached since I was the oldest. Lori got the rough house since she was a tomboy and his favorite. We were so happy to see him.

However, when Dad got home, he was different. When we three jumped on him to tickle him in his chair, he growled and pushed us away. He turned mean. He got mad at the dog over an accident and threw it up against the wall. He broke a guy’s nose at a party for making a comment about Vietnam. Mom tells how he woke up from nightmares in a cold sweat. All he could think about was going back over there, and that’s what he did a few months later. When we drove him to the airport, I cried uncontrollably in the car. I did not know that would be the last time I would ever see him.

I am proud to be Dad’s daughter. My Mother deserves a medal of her own. She is an original Super Mom who worked full-time and raised three young girls up into happy, successful adults. The strength of both parents lives on in us. My sisters still don’t like to talk about Dad, but one day our children will be glad to hear about him. Bob Swenck never saw his daughters graduate college (all three of us!) or get married; he can’t kiss his grandchildren or hold his wife’s hand as they grow old. Heroes historically have fought for a good cause. My father was a hero because he believed he was defending the freedom of his family and country. He could not know he was jousting against the windmills of Communism. The Viet Cong was a real enough enemy, vicious in battle. He fought hard and bravely and gave his life for his fellow man. He deserves the same honor as any soldier. He did not die for nothing. He died for his belief in freedom, because he was a soldier doing his job. I write this to give him that honor.

Stacy Swenck

Vogelsang, John Kim

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PFC John Kim Vogelsang
Co “A”, 2nd BN, 5th Cav, 1st Cav Division
Army

Service in Vietnam
1969 – 1969

Location of Casualty
Tay Ninh, Vietnam

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Although I never got to meet him, he will always be in my heart.

Burkett, Curtis E.

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SP4 Curtis E Burkett
23rd Infantry Divsion – 123rd Aviation Battalion
Army

Service in Vietnam
1970 – 1971

Location of Casualty
Quang Nai Province

The Wall
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I think about you everyday wondering what would have been. Your family misses you & we will always keep your memory alive.

Geoghegan, John Lance

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2nd LT John Lance Geoghegan
Division: 1st Cavalry; Battalion: 1st; Regiment: 7th; Company: C
Army

Service in Vietnam
1965 – 1965

Location of Casualty
Ia Drang, South Vietnam

The Wall
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I was five months old when my dad died. Luckily, he was able to spend a month with me before heading to Vietnam. After his tour in Vietnam, he and my mom planned to travel back to East Africa (where they spent the first year of their married life and were I was conceived) working for Catholic Relief Services in the villages of Tanzania. He truly wanted to dedicate his life to helping those in need. He died going to the aid of one of his comrades (Willie Godboldt); their names are listed next to each other on The Wall.

I am at a bit of a loss as to what to say next…I was fortunate in that my mom put together all kinds of items to help me learn about my dad when I was ready and she remarried a man who honored the memory of my father. So growing-up seemed “pretty normal” and because of that, I pushed that empty place in me further down. After many years of counseling, I am only just beginning to reach that part of me deep inside that LONGS for the comfort of my daddy. To be held by him, to hear his voice.

He was an only child and I was his only child. His parents have long since passed and my mom (my only remaining close connection to his memory) is struggling with her own memory. I feel lonely and miss my dad, but the emotion is so strange because I miss someone I never knew.

Thank God for my “brothers and sisters” in SDIT. They know and understand. My love and support goes out to all of them.